Approaching Death or New Life?

I feel more motivated

Girl on the moon; This was one of the first paintings I sold. It was an original watercolor

I’ve noticed that I’ve been feeling more inspired these days to write. It used to be harder for me to feel motivated, even though I love to write.

So what is going on?

There is something pushing me.

I am fighting stage IV cancer. It’s spread to bones and so they want to keep giving me stronger chemo.

Instead, I have chosen to take supplements such as fish oil. My poop smells either way but the fishiness is not accompanied by agony. I think that’s a win.

I’m an optimist so I believe I’ll still be around years from now. However, what if I am not?

The most important question — have I served God’s purpose?

Because that is what is crucial to my existence.

The good Lord brought me into this world and when my time arrives He will take me home. And the new world I go into will indeed be my home. A place where I will not experience the pain of this life. I believe I will see those I loved again, including beloved pets and other animals.

I believe the souls of animals (like young children) are pure (and they do exist). I do have a few Bible verses that I think would back me up but I need to more deeply study this and see if it’s backed up…