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Cancer In My Bones
I am really getting frustrated with this stupid disease
I’ve been battling metastatic cancer for 2 years now. I’ve lost my hair and had it regrow, only to have to lose it again due to needing more treatments. I’ve had to deal with loss of energy, nausea, indigestion, and balance issues. I am more sensitive to temperature. I lost the function in my right hand for a while. Typing with just your left hand sucks.
Plus, I used to be an artist. I can be one again, I believe, but I am going to have to re-train my hand. Shoot, I have to re-train it to write with a pen! My signature these days looks like it was signed by a doctor or a second grader.
What is most frustrating though — every time I think I have licked the cancer, it shows up in some different part of my body. I feel like the little Dutch Boy who keeps trying to plug the holes in the dam, but every time he plugs them, new ones show up.
It’s exhausting and discouraging.
To be honest. there have been days I’ve just let myself have a good cry. There have been days I’ve wallowed in depression.
What really sucks is finding out that the cancer has now hit my bones. It causes pain and loss of function.
