I Am Now Bedridden

I am so tired of fighting the cancer

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Because of the location of the cancer in my bones, there is a risk that if I continue to walk I will break my hip and need surgery and there will be many other complications.

So I am essentially bedridden.

I would not be able to survive without help.

I am very lucky that there are people in my life who are willing and able to help care for me. My mother, who is 82 years old, brings me water and soup. She can’t handle much else because she has her own health issues. But I don’t have much appetite anyway.

My cat was recently attackd by another cat and she’s been on antibiotics because she was wounded.

I was limping to the kitchen to make sure she got her meds, but now Mom has to do that as well.

I feel bad putting so much stuff on Mom but I don’t have a choice.

I have friends who take Mom to the doctor for me, who are willing to run errands… and who take me for treatment.

They also provide emotional support.

I don’t think I could manage without that.

Honestly, this has been a scary, depressing time and I’ve needed shoulders to cry on. The ongoing expenses for medical bills, both for me and now my…