Is There A Reason For My Suffering?

Or is God malicious and mean?

Shingles on my arm — they are quite painful and spread on both sides

I have been fighting metastatic brain cancer since April of 2021. It’s been a true battle and I feel emotionally drained a lot of the time. I’ve endured the trifecta of painful cancer treatments — brain surgery, radiation, and chemotherapy.

I’ve also been using a variety of alternative therapies which I credit with helping me survive far longer than the doctors anticipated. When I was diagnosed I was given a prognosis of 6 months.

I do believe that my faith in God and my willingness to try alternative therapies such as DHA supplementation has helped me better endure the traditional treatments and survive.

However, last week I was diagnosed with shingles.

Apparently, what kills cancer patients is often not the cancer, but other illnesses such as pneumonia and, yes, shingles, that their compromised immune systems cannot deal with.

My physical therapist, who is also a Christian, called me today to check up on me. I asked him not to come over again until I was no longer contagious, but he wanted to see how I was doing. We had a short conversation and he told me he thought my decision to take a break from chemo might have been inspired by God, as it allowed my white blood counts to rise high enough to fight off…