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I’ve Been Crying A Lot Lately
It’s been a roller coaster
This morning a friend of mine texted me out of the blue to let me know they are praying for me and is there anything they can do? (My friend is non-binary so I am using their preferred pronouns). I asked for a London Fog, which is my favorite hot beverage these days. I also asked that we spend time together, since I need to not feel isolated right now.
I’ve been dealing with cancer for a year, and recently the news put me on an emotional roller coaster. I have metastatic brain, lung, and liver cancer. It was diagnosed last April.
I got really good results from my most recent MRI. All the brain tumors had shrunk or disappeared. So that had me giddy with happiness. My mother was bawling from happiness and I cried some too.
Then I had a CT scan and bad news — my liver cancer has grown. So then I was crying because I was upset and sad. My Mom was sad too.
Last night my pastor came over to pray with me and we ended up teary eyed though we didn’t actually cry. But it was emotional.
Then this morning my friend texted me — and that made me cry some more because people are being so kind to me right now. That makes me feel really loved, so why am I crying?
