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Social Media Got Me Down Today
Not that I was feeling cheery before that…
I was feeling down today.
I’ve been fighting metastatic cancer since April of last year, and I’m just getting weary. Plus I was looking at my life in general and it just seemed really sad.
I’ve been going through chemo, which is no fun. I feel like I no longer have a life. My energy levels are just so low and I can’t risk infection.
While the side effects of chemo have not been as bad as I feared, they haven’t been nonexistent. I’ve had weakness, insomnia, and recently, some neuropathy in my fingers. Also, after my last immunotherapy session, my heart was racing. I’m worried about heart damage now, though the oncologist told me it was a temporary effect and told me to make sure I had a good breakfast the next time I had that treatment.
Then, this last weekend, I got an ear infection. Now my ear hurts. It’s just the last thing I didn’t need.
Meanwhile, when I check social media — one friend and her husband are in Hawaii for their anniversary. Another friend had a huge birthday party. Someone else just got promoted.
Of course I am happy for my friends but… I just wish I had good things happening in my life too, instead of dealing with cancer.
