thanks for sharing.

I am an Indian-American who has dated Chinese and Chinese American men. They were some of the best guys I dated in many ways.

I also know Indian men who have dated Asian ladies and they treat them pretty well. So... maybe try to date outside of black and white and look at Hispanics, Asians, Indians, etc. I don't think these cultures are as bad? But I don't know.

I suspect that while there is some racism against Indians, it's worse against Asian due to, as you said, the fetishes and so on.

And whatever happens, stay strong. You are not some submissive person and you deserve better.