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Watching “Home Alone” Again
Moments of Joy Amidst the Pain of Chemo
I have been fighting metastatic cancer for almost 4 years now. I was originally diagnosed with metastic brain, lung, and liver cancer. Then those areas became cancer free but the cancer moved into my bones. Then those bones became cancer free but I started having necrotic tissue build up in my brain. Then we got that treated but I am still waiting on the MRI to show it’s gone, and, in the meanwhile, my markers and spiking and the cancer is back in my liver but it’s now trying to damage my chest wall.
So I’m having chemo and this time around the chemo is worse that it’s been. I am literally miserable. I wake up and I don’t want to get out of bed. I have a hard time being pleasant even to people I love. I just want to crawl into a cave.
Only two things are keeping me going — I know, despite everything, that God is with me and He will never leave me. And I know my Mom would be devastated if I died. Plus I have friends that love me, but some days I wake up feeling so crappy that it’s only Mom that keeps me hanging on, that and knowing Christ will be there. I only have to ask Him and He will get me through.
Given how I felt, I didn’t do much of anything to celebrate Christmas this year.
